Hotmail

Gavin has his own e-mail now. I don't know why exactly but I got the idea that I should get him an e-mail account with hotmail before someone else might use his name. My first option was not available but my second choice was so I decided to go for it. The neat part was it asked for his Birthday and being that he is only 2 years-old it asked for adult consent, so I had to give a credit card number and sign in under my account to prove that I am over 18. Nothing was charged as hotmail is free to its users, but they check to make sure I am who I say I am.

So hopefully in another couple of years when Gavin starts to make friends (and learn to type), we will remember his account information and be able to talk to family and friends through e-mail.

Those of you who would like his private e-mail address just send me an e-mail. I don't want to post it since you never know who will be reading this blog. Hopefully he won't be bombarded with junk mail in the next few months. Hmmm... I guess I'll have to sign in periodically to make sure they don't close the account? Not sure...

Saturday

Well today I finally got myself into a cleaning mode. I still managed to waste away a few hours on a computer game, but all in all I'm happy with the little I got done. I did about 3 loads of laundry (still in the process of folding and putting it all away), washed both cars, did a sink full of dishes, and picked up the living room a bit. I still haven't gotten around to cleaning the bathroom

but I can dream, lol. Jon says he will help me out with that but I honestly doubt it. Right now Gavin is on his way back from Great-Grandma's house so I'm trying to run around and get last minute things in order. I LOVE having Saturday afternoons to myself. I think it's good for Gavin to get out and be around his Grandpa and Great-Grandma for a few hours, and of course I get some time to run errands and do housework. Yay! There are a few times I actually go and get my nails done or shop at the mall... but not as often as I would like.

Anyway I should wrap this up since he will come running through the door any minute, wanting dinner and some love. This morning he decided he wanted to wear sunglasses in the house.

GOOD NEWS!

I found out that my breast tumor is benign!! Now I have no more worried nights or treatments to drive to. I am still sore and healing but I am so thankful to not have a serious issue. The Dr. said I probably won't be able to breastfeed from my left breast due to the removal of some of the ducts, but I won't know for sure until the time comes. I hate the idea of not having a breast to use but things could be so much worse. I am confident I can breastfeed just fine with one breast if I have to.

Thank you all for your prayers and/or support.

Hot Pink Nails

Gavin and I went a little wild today and woke up with our toe nails painted... hmmmm... I wonder who would have done such a thing??

Just kidding of course. I decided to paint my toes and Gavin got very excited about it and pointed to his toes so I figured why not? Now he's dancing around the house and pointing them out to everyone he sees, very cute indeed. There are lots of Metro sexual men and I would be proud regardless. Jon is pretty Metro himself (gel products, aftershaves,aromatherapy, mint scrubs, etc). Jim (FIL) wasn't too happy about it though....

No news

I still haven't heard anything about my test results and I have a feeling I may have to wait until my appointment on Friday with my Doctor before I find anything out. I hate waiting. I want to move on and find out that everything is fine or the slim chance that something is not fine... I just want to know now! My recovery has been going well but I still find I feel nauseated and some breast pain every now and then. I'm almost 14 weeks along so I don't know why I still feel like I have morning sickness all of the time. I know I wasn't this sick with Gavin.

Yesterday our family had a great day. Jon had the day off from work so he stayed home with Gavin and let me run over to UTC Mall. I got a new maternity bathing suit and a few other odds and ends and finally replaced our cell phone that Gavin had broken weeks ago. Once I got back home Jon made burgers and fries and we had a nice summer day picnic at the beach. We piled all our towels, a cooler,umbrella, and beach toys into Gavin's red wagon and spent a couple of hours spashing in the waves and laying around. The water has been warming up (65ish) so it's not terribly cold but not the warmest either. Gavin really enjoyed jumping into the water hole that Jon dug out for him.

Just as I was typing the phone rang and it was the Nurse letting me know results are not in yet for my biopsy. It looks like I may have to wait until my Post- Op appointment on Friday before finding out the news. Did I mention how much I hate waiting?! Lol. I keep telling myself it will be fine but I wish I could know sooner. Oh well...

So after our day at the beach Gavin and I took a nice warm bubble bath and got ready to go to Michelle's house. We had a great time cooking and eating with friends, and it was really nice to see how well Ari and Gavin played together. I ended up staying until 8pm, which is late for us! Gavin did not want to leave but as soon as we started driving he fell fast asleep and I got him into bed with just a few whimpers. (Oh he also slept in until 7am!! A very rare occurance).

I loved being busy and having so much to do yesterday but today I don't feel like doing anything. I wish I didn't feel so tired and nauseated all of the time. I really feel badly when Gavin watches TV and doesn't get to go out and play with other kids. I know I can't constantly entertain him but sometimes I wish I had someone I could call and just take him out for a bit so I could stay at home and relax. Hopefully I can get Jon to take him to the park this evening or even just play a new game with him. Gavin gets tired of seeing mommy's face all day everyday. :)

Sorry no pictures. I haven't been good about carrying the camera around.

Post-OP

I can barely remember yesterday since I was coming off of drugs and sedatives. My surgery was done by 10:30 and I was home by 12. As the medicine wore off I started throwing up and feeling very sick and shaky. Luckily by evening time I was able to eat some soup and ended up sleeping the rest of the day and night. The Dr. said I should get a phone call Wednesday with results so I am just going to have to wait to find out the news. Gavin has been with my In-Laws so it's been nice not having to tend to him or worry about how I can handle carrying him around. Hopefully in a few days the pain will be better and the cut will be healed more. I am taking some strong Tylenol and using ice packs and that seems to be enough. I will let you know more as I find out. Today I will probably sleep more and Jon is going to rent a movie or two for us to watch. I feel tired and groggy but much better than yesterday.

It's going to be very hot today and tomorrow (in the 90s) so the beach is going to be packed. I'll just be laying around enjoying the cool air from our AC.

A Little Stressed

Well my week hasn't been the best one but it may be because I'm stressing a bit about my breast surgery tomorrow morning. I am having a left breast biopsy at Scripps Green Hospital. I keep telling myself it is only an hour long procedure and I will be home by noon, so it can't be that bad. I think what scares me the most is having a 20% chance that it might be cancer or something serious. I hate having to wait and not know what is going to happen, the anticipation is driving me nuts. I don't think it will be cancer or anything serious, but just having that thought in the back of my mind.. what if?... is what bothers me.

On Tuesday I spent the afternoon at Urgent Care only to be told I needed to go to the ER for further testing. I was having terrible upper back pain and a tight burning feeling in my stomach. The pain lasted for a few days and was getting worse so I decided to get it checked out. At PB Urgent Care the Dr. told me she thought it was gallstones or something to do with my gallbladder and that I should go to the ER to get an ultrasound done and determine what the problem is. SO after waiting for 2 hours at Urgent Care I went to Sharp ER and waited a total of 6 hours before I finally got to see a Doctor. During the 6 hour wait I got blood work taken and an ultrasound of my gallbladder done. In the end, thank God, it was not my gallbladder or gallstones. I had severe stomach acid which could have been caused by a possible ulcer, GERD, or who knows what else. I have had heartburn before and it had never felt like what that, but they had ruled out anything worse so I had to leave not knowing what to do next. I decided to try Pepcid AC since Tums had no affect on the pain. Pepcid AC did the trick! Now I feel dumb for spending an entire day at the ER and being so stressed out, just to find out it was stomach acid! I honestly did not know it could last all day long (for that many days) and cause so much back pain. I guess I have my pregnancy to thank or maybe the stress of my surgery and other family issues compiled with it. Now I get to look forward to more medical bills besides the cost of the surgery, yippee!

I hate to only have negative things to say so I will add a few good things about this week to balance it all out. Today I feel much better and more like my happy-self. Jon spent the entire day yesterday cleaning the apartment and making me feel relaxed and very loved. Gavin has been more vocal and learns new things every day, it's so amazing to watch him grow up. I have very supportive family and friends and I am thankful for all their love and help. AND I'm very glad it wasn't gallstones because that would have required surgery and I think I would have had a mental breakdown if I had to have gallbladder surgery and breast surgery all at once.

After this week is over I can't wait to sigh in relief and be thankful that I don't have cancer. (I am being optimistic). I mean 2 out of 10 is pretty good odds in my favor. Wish my luck!! I will let you all know how it goes. I hope it won't be too long before I get the pathology results. What seems strange to me is that due to my pregnancy the surgeon said she is only going to use local anaesthesia (normally they would make me groggy and out of it with general anaesthesia). I really don't like the idea of being fully alert while being cut open. I guess I just have to trust the Doctor and maybe they can give my a Valium if I start to freak out. :)

Father's Day!

Well it has been a nice Father's Day weekend for our family. On Saturday I got my dad his favorite Mexican food and we had a nice lunch together. I gave him a picture of Gavin and myself with Big Bird at Sea world and some See's peanut brittle (yummy!). Jon's Father's Day weekend really started on Friday night. He worked the past 12 days prior to Friday so he really wanted to kick back and enjoy a good beer with some friends. I made it my top priority to order some specialty German beers from Bevmo, of course since Gavin had lost my Drivers license a few weeks before I had to use my passport as ID, but it worked out. Things are never as easy as you plan, the online order wasn't prepared so I had to chase Gavin around a liquor store for 20 minutes while an employee tried to find my order and get it ready for me. In the end it all worked out but it was such a pain in the butt, lol. My husband woke up around 5pm and was so happy when I pulled out about 5 different types of tasty beers for him to sample, I even wrote out the ratings and reviews that were said about each kind so he knew a little bit more about them. He LOVED them!

I probably should explain that I got him German beer because I had purchased an antique beer stein on Ebay for his Father's Day gift so I thought what better than to serve him beer from Germany in his German Beer stein. The beer stein was a huge hit and the fact that it was made in the early 1900s in Metlach Germany made it that much more special (I researched it). So having done all this Friday night he didn't expect anything else the rest of the weekend, but I decided to have some more fun with him. I gave him Saturday as his free day to dominate the TV and watch whatever he wanted all day. I know this sounds like what normal dads do everyday but not in our house where Gavin controls the TV with cartoons and Elmo 24-7. Jon spent the day watching Terminator, Robocop, Water World (don't ask me why), Spider Man 3.... and the list goes on. I brought home Mexican food for him and we both spent a few hours relaxing while Gavin was being baby-sat by his Grandpa and Great-Grandma.

Fast forward to Sunday (today) and we're actually on the real Father's Day day. I know it's just a commerically hyped holiday to make money and be cheesy, but what a prefect day to remind yourself of why you appreciate your dad and husband. I crawled out of bed before Gavin woke up, 6am, and started cooking pancakes and bacon for my FIL and husband. After Gavin woke up we spent breakfast upstairs with my Father In Law and gave him a cute picture card and some cuff links (what else do you get a FIL?)...hehe. Jon woke up a few hours later and I gave him a box of See's chocolates and his card. I'm bummed he has to go to work tonight so I know this day will be over sooner than I would like, but I think all in all the weekend went really well.

He seems to be in good spirits since he got to relax and do what he wanted this weekend, besides being forced to wear a #1 Dad t-shirt and hat (I love to brag). Tonight we are going to BBQ some steaks and have homemade potato salad with his parents. I couldn't have asked for a better husband.

I hope you all had a great Father's Day with the men in your lives~! They deserve one day to be pampered, right? The rest of the year I can continue my nagging about the dirty dishes and dirty laundry he left on the floor. :)

US Open

Well thanks to a very nice person on Moms and Tots I got a free ticket to the Golf US Open today. My MIL was very nice and offered to watch Gavin for the day and give me the time to enjoy myself. I picked up the ticket and headed over to Qualcomm Stadium to catch the free buses to Torrey Pines Golf Course. It took awhile to walk and wait, but I finally arrived around 10am at the Course. I am not into golf, I mean I like the sport, but I can't play worth a darn, and the only famous person I know is Tiger Woods. I had hoped to spot Tiger but I never caught a glimpse of him, oh well.

The golf course is beautiful. It felt so invigorating to walk around all the green lush grass and trees overlooking the ocean. It wasn't relaxing because I ended up walking for hours, but it was nice to have no one to rush me and nothing to stress about. I took my time stopping here and there to watch the golfers tee-off and sipped on a lemonade (that cost $4!!). I enjoyed chatting with the older spectators who explained to me how things were ran and why the event was so special. I think it was mainly men over 60 but there were a few families with small children. I stayed longer than I had intended and caught the bus back around 2pm. All in all it was a very nice day. I didn't wear sunscreen or bring a hat so now I'm sitting here with aloe rubbed all over my red face. I should have realized there was a reason everyone was wearing golf hats and visors. I almost bought a hat but for 30 bucks I decided it wasn't worth wearing once or twice in my life. I ended up getting a magnet instead since I have a nice collection that I add to on each of my trips.

My husband and FIL thought I was crazy for wanting to go by myself. "You don't even watch golf." "Why would you want to go by yourself?" I don't think my husband realized that it wasn't the love of watching a golf tournament that made me want to go, it was the fun of doing something different and spontaneous. Who knows when or if I'll ever get the opportunity to go again? Why not do something different and try something new, what have I got to lose? If it was terrible I could have left after a half an hour and it wouldn't have cost me anything. In the end I'm happy I went... just bummed about my darn sunburn. I could kick myself for not packing some sunscreen.

Hello!

Wow It has been forever since I have written a blog. I don't know where to start off. On Sunday Gavin and I went to his friend Jack's 3rd Birthday Party. It was at The Plunge pool so we were able to swim and play in a bouncy jump for two hours! We had pizza and blue iced cupcakes. I felt like a whale in the water since I'm now 12 weeks pregnant... imagine me in another few months! :o) Gavin had a blast but has been having issues with water lately. He cries if I mention the word bath or if I start running the bath water. I try and make it as fun as possible and I even get into the bath with him so he won't be scared. Luckily it has gotten a bit better the past week and he cries until he gets into the bath. After he's in the water playing and having a good time he is fine, but I feel like I am torturing him when I try to get him to get into the bath tub. SO when we went to the pool on Sunday he started out crying and screaming, but after we splashed around and got a few toys he calmed down. I think he gets so upset because it's something he can't control. He feels mad and frustrated because when I say it's bath time, it's bath time, and he knows he has to deal with it. I wouldn't mind letting him tell me when he wants a bath, but whenever I give him an option he vigorously shakes his head, NO!





I guess it's just a battle he'll have to realize he can never win. The rest of his life he has to take showers or baths so he'll have to get used to it. I try and make it as painless and fun as possible, but sometimes it's just a battle of wills.

Anyway the party was fun besides his fear of water. The kids looked adorable with blue iceing smeared all over their faces. It was also really nice to see Melissa, Job, and Diego, since they aren't members of MTSD anymore, and it has been months since I had seen them. She is due in September (pretty sure), but she looked much cuter in her maternity two piece. I can never wear a two piece, even when I'm not pregnant.